Description: It was everything, from his tattoos, to his touches, to the way sweat rolled down his neck as he strummed into his guitar on stage; everything about him had completely enthralled you. So why are you now, two and a half years later, on a train to Seoul, telling a complete stranger the recollection of how you became fated to forever have scars on all of your future hearts, due to the happiness, but most of all the pain, that came along with falling in love with Jeon Jungkook.
The past year and a half was spent trying to recover from the hurricane that was Jeon Jungkook. He invaded your thoughts like a virus that wanted to infect everything in its path. He even crept his way into your dreams, making even the deep realm of sleep a warzone of heartbreak and emotion. It made sense, he was your everything, so now of course you saw him in everything.
You tried to bury yourself in things like work and school when he first left, just so your focus wasn’t purely on the giant black hole that he had left in your life. It wasn’t like you were completely broken by his leaving, it was more so this tiny weight that he had somehow managed to embed inside of your chest. You would be doing fine, and then a tiny scrape of cold metal against your fingertip would send you flying back into the past.
Laying in his bed as you swiped the pad of your thumb across his lip, catching the edge of the cool metal jewelry protruding from his lip while he slept. A simple memory that made it hard to breathe once you were reminded of it, because you knew that it was no longer a possible reality.
Now with all of that being said, the real question is, how do you get over it? You used to think that there really wasn’t a way to get around these feelings, so maybe they would eventually just dull with time, or they could possibly be replaced by gaining feelings for someone else, or maybe you could simply find someone who masked the pain.
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